Friday, November 27, 2009
Kindle by Trish
It was 1:15 in the morning when Kindle opened her eyes again. The pillow on Darrin's side of the bed was gone. She sat up and listened in the dark for signs that he might still be awake but the only thing she could hear was the faint barking of the neighborhood dogs. Carefully and quietly she peeled off the old afghan that had cocooned her these past hours and the fact that this warm, soft friend had comforted her once again was not lost to her as she slipped off the bed and out of the room.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Cedar by Iris Rosewater
It’s Thanksgiving and for some reason it seemed like a good idea to host it at my mother’s house. I’m re-evaluating this decision as I whisk around her kitchen, trying to find a decent saucepan. She has not thrown many away - I recognize a couple from when I was about 4 years old - and they have accumulated over the years, all with handles loose and cracking from one-hundred runs through the dishwasher, their Teflon coating thin, scraped, and chipping. Every lid doesn’t match or fit exactly and must have come with a pot that actually found it’s way to goodwill, or maybe that’s where they all came from… I can’t decide. I make a mental note to buy her a new set for Christmas. I sharpen all the knives I can find that aren’t slightly rusted, and take a sip of egg nog before preheating the oven.
My husband is watching football in the living room, and the dogs bark when he gets excited about a good play, which makes me laugh. My son is sitting at the table, making his fifth turkey out of construction paper, and his hands are lined with a fifth color between every finger and over every tip as he traces out a thumb-head and four hefty finger-feathers. My daughter has dragged her grandma into the spare bedroom to put her dolly down for a nap, and I can see them through the open door, gingerly tucking an old afghan under the plastic chin, the doll’s blinking eyes closed, hemmed by a thick fringe of lashes. My little girl holds her finger against her lips, shushing grandma, and then guides her, fingers wrapped tightly around a wrinkled pinky-finger, to the door on tip-toe. The kitchen is calm and I am alone in it as I poke through the cupboards to retrieve mother’s box of family recipes to prepare our holiday meal.
The recipe box is a relic from my great-grandmother. Opening the cedar lid triggers a dozen memories. I stop and lean into the scent, closing my eyes and sorting from the blur of visions… my grandmother’s round thumbs picking through the file, how heavy a cup of sugar felt to my little hands as I helped my mother make cookies, the tickle of her apron’s red ruffle brushing against my cheek. This is a magical box, I realize with reverence, carefully pulling out our family’s nurturing records. If I follow this map -if I toast the pecans for the frosted cranberry salad just right, if I put the precise amount of brown sugar on the yams and pull them out when the marshmallows have just turned from golden to brown, then I will be a little girl again with my feet dangling from my aunt’s dining room chair. I will hear my father laugh, though he left us years ago. With these little handwritten slips, spotted with flour and egg, I can resurrect our dearest ghosts. I take my selections and lay them out on the counter for reference, taking a quiet moment to compare all of our curled script on varying shades of yellowing white… the matriarchs’ collective history of family and love… tying the apron behind my neck and smoothing its dusty ruffles before I begin.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Afghan, barking dogs, and a box by Daniel Fear
I was wrapped snuggly under the afghan my Mother had crocheted for me. It was the best afghan in the old drafty house. The stitching was done from my three favorite colors of brown, tan and green. Mom had used a wavy pattern. I really love this afghan. I watched her for hours, as she would work on it while I was a kid. Now, I cling to it for hours at a time. It will be treasured forever and will bring me comfort only a mother can give. My Mom is now gone, but the love in the afghan still comforts me.
The weather outside was atrocious. Cold, blistery, windy, snowy, foggy, and just generally crappy! Especially for someone that craves warmer weather. What am I doing this far north? Anyway, I’m not going to go outside anytime soon, so I will stay under my afghan! I’m just going to sit here and keep watching my favorite daytime TV programs. Besides, I only watch them when I feel like this. That is, I feel so good that you could stab me in the eye with a spoon and I would think it was an improvement. The only thing making me remotely comfortable is the nice hot Constant Comment tea that just finished brewing and my two trusting dogs curled up on top of the afghan. One of them a pure-bred mutt named Honey; and the other a great and fantastic Dachshund named Prince DaShaR; or Prince for short (inherited of course, again from my Mother).
As I usually do when feeling ill and watching my favorite daytime TV, the History Channel, Science Channel and Military Channel, I was beginning to doze off when my wonderful cozy foot warmers turned into an Early Warning System – the dogs began barking endlessly! I’m not sure what they were barking at, but it was quite cacophonous and really down right annoying. They continued barking and jumping, jumping and barking, bouncing, and jumping and barking. If there had been someone dead in my house, they would have stirred…what could possibly have set them off so badly. I wasn’t expecting any visitors, especially in my current state.
After running out of throw pillows to toss at the EWS, I begrudgingly extracted myself from warmth of the afghan and the comfort of the couch to peak outside and see what was could possibly be going on. There was nothing out of place, nothing overtly disturbed, but to my surprise a small wooden box had appeared. Intricate in construction and simple in decoration, it sat neatly in the snow just off of the front step of the house. My curiosity piqued, I threw open the door danced outside, scooped up the box and launched myself back through the door hoping to move fast enough so the cold air wouldn’t be able to catch me. Man, I hate being cold!
I jumped over the back of the couch and quickly snuggled back up under the afghan. The Early Warning System had turned itself off and they had resumed the duty of cozy foot warmers as I began to stop shivering and started to puzzle over the little wooden box. Absolutely quaint in every way, I was completely puzzled by it. A plain pine box with a dark stain stared curiously up at me. There were no hinges, but it seemed to fit together like a shoebox. There was a very simple carving of a frog on the top of the box and the letters DSR were neatly etched into the bottom. This was surprising and comforting all at the same time. My Mother’s initials were D.S.R, Diana Sue Rogers (Rogers being her maiden name), and frogs were her favorite item to collect.
I found this surprising because my Mother had passed away over a year ago, a victim of cancer at the age of 54. Mom created an atmosphere of love and support all through my childhood for my brothers and I. That sense of love and support has continued into our adult hood. She had been a solid partner for my father and a devout Christian. Her love has continued to amaze me over the past 14 months and will continue to give me the same strength for the rest of my life. So, to find this small token that appeared to be from my mother was quite unexpected. This little box brought an instant sense of comfort.
I decided that I needed to open this little box, so I did. Inside I found a piece of paper neatly folded to fit perfectly inside. I carefully pulled it out and tenderly unfolded it. The paper was aged and discolored. It had frogs and roses stenciled along the edge as a border. Inside that border written in my Mom’s script was a letter, with no date, but addressed to my daughter and me. Yep, my daughter! She is a precocious two, and my Mother had the privilege of spoiling her for nearly 18 months. During that short amount of time at such an early age for my daughter, she created that same sense of love and support that I had shared with Mom. They were wonderful moments to watch!
This is what I read:
To my Son and Granddaughter:
I love you both more than can be measured. You will have fun learning from each other while you both continue on your paths.
Son, always remember that patience is the most important part of raising a child. When that little girl is destroying the house, remember to first smile, breathe and then put things back together.
Granddaughter, I love you and had hoped to teach you all the things that a Grandmother is supposed to teach a grandchild, but I’m not going to get that opportunity. Just always remember that I love you!
With all of my love forever,
Mom and Nana
I no longer felt as ill as I had earlier in the day. Now I couldn’t wait for the end of the day when my daughter would come home and I would be able share this new discovery with her. The laughter and joy we would share this afternoon will make my Mom smile down on us. Even with her gone from day to day life, she still knows how to make me feel better.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Three Random Things by Trish
1. an old afghan
2. the sound of barking dogs
3. a box (the type of box is your choice, be creative!)
Good luck! I can't wait to see what we all come up with!